Im Only Gonna Break Your Heart

Im the one who wants to die.
Im the one who says hes not okay.
Im the one who is about to cry.
Not because of him.
But because of his unintended actions.
I get upset he doesnt care.
I threaten not to be his friend he says okay.
I tell him to stop he doesnt.
Fuck you.
You say you love me but you go off with him.
You say we are best friends,
But you choose him when im about to cry.
You dont realize it.
But i love you.
Not as a friend.
Your beautiful.
Your kind.
Your sweet.
I wish you could be mine.
When  hear certain songs i think f you.
Why cant i just ever be happy.
For me that never happens.
I become happy for a while.
Then it all gets ruined.
I need to leave this place.
Why am i the one who is always like this.
You kill me.
And you dont even know it.