Saturday, June 11, 2011

I know my heart will never be the same...



Listen to the song above. I love it. I am getting a lyric of it tattooed on me when i come out to my dad offically. Im getting, "Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger." So anyways. At school I am very close to my civics teacher/debate coach. And Friday was his last day because he is moving to Nashville. On his last day, my teacher, a gay kid in my class and I were sitting in his room talking. And Mr. Whitmer came out as gay to me. The other kid already knew. This made me really upset. Not because i care thats hes gay, but because I feel like if i had known sooner, i would have had someone to talk to. I would have had a actual adult who knows what its like. I mean i have adults to talk to, but they are straight and dont know what its like. He does. Gah I really wish I would have known earlier.

So today my dad and I had this long talk about alot of shit. He talked I listened. Alot of bull shit about how he trys and i need to strat trying. He said is there anything you want to say, all i could think was how much I want to come out, but i didnt. I was scared.

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