Sam by day....Me by night.

You think i am but im not.
I go to school.
Most of the time in t shirt and jeans.
Nothing special.
I used to try to look good.
Nice shirt...
Striaghtened hair.
I looked alright.
But no one cared
So now im sam.
And most of them probaly dont know the real me.,
I wear glasses.
But the make my eyes look huge so i got contacts.
Im ugly.
I dont know.
Im tired of not being me.
You see they see the sam tarleton at school.
The one who does okay in school...
but he never asks any questions...
Cause he hates people staring at him and thinking im dumb.
Im the one whos thigh always is in pain.
Cause of the cuts.
Im the one who has a best friend.
But isnt anyones best friend.
Im the one who people say they hate.
Even though they dont know me.
Im the one who is chosen last.
Im the one who loves being at school.
Not because i love to learn,
But i hate being at home.
Im the one who crys.
All the time.
The one who sits in the corner in his bathroom crying.
Cutting his leg.
Im the one who is bleeding at this very moment.
Cause he cut him self 8 times today.
I cut 9 yesterday.
and 6 the day before.
23 cuts on me.
A record.
One not to be proud of....
But im not the only cutter...
I have a friend.
Who i can talk about anything with.
Well not anything.
But cutting wise i can.
I have anotther who i can talk about sexual orientaion issues with.
I have one last friend....
Who listens to me with everything i say.
But once i say one secret.
They treats me different.
I dont know.
This is me.
During the day i look okay.
But at night...
Thats when i become the real me.
Take me or leave me?
Thats your choice.