To be fat like me.

I want to look in the mirror and be happy.
I want to be able to go to the pool and not ne ashamed of my body.
I want to stop being the center of the fat jokes.
I want to not look in the mirror and be asamed.
I want to be able to walk aroud without my shirt on.
I want to be able to fit thru small places.
I want to be able to not get tired easliy.
I want to know that im not the fat kid.
I want to stop lieing to myself by saying i look fine.
I want to to be happy as me.
I want to want to not look like shit all the time.
I want to not have "man boobs"
I want to to lose 50 pounds.
I am 5 feet 8 inches tall.
I weigh 182 pounds.
I am 27.5 on the BMI scale.
Healthy is between 18.5-24.9.
I want to loose 50 pounds.
I want to loose 30 pounds by christmas.
But my overall goal is 50.
I know you probaly dont care...
But if i post this...
It makes me feel like ill actually do it.
Im going to go to the YMCA everyday.
Im going to eat healthy.
Stop buting lunch.
Im going get healthy.
If you care thanks!
If you dont...its okay. Cause this is my goal.
Im going to post once a week about the weight loss goal..
Kinda chick-ish.
But thats okay.