The British are Coming

Mercer Part Two here I am.

I moved into my new room at Mercer this week! Its pretty awesome. This year I have almost an apartment type dorm, except we don't have a kitchen. So I have my own bedroom, and share a bathroom and living room with my new room mate: Korby.

Korby and I were randomly assigned to be roommates this year. Originally I thought I was going to be roomed with my friend Christian, but that didn't work out so here I am! Korby seems nice. He does not go out or like to party. So it will be interesting to see how this year works out. He has not left the room much, he really has only had people over. After last year with Tyler not being in the room much at all, it will be interesting to see what its like with a roommate with me all the time.


Sophomore year is here. Lets see how this goes.

A Whole New World

Hello All! Long time no blog! Well I am in College now! Woot Woot! I go to Mercer University. Well I am liking it alright here. It has been hard. I miss home. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my life. People here are alright, I just miss knowing I can lay in my moms bed and watch Lifetime movies whenever I please. Well I should be writing a paper so I should go....But Ill write soon!

Tell the world I said Hello

I invite Tamriage out to eat, he says no. Someone else in the group invites him, he says yes.
I invite Tamriage to go see Rascal Flatts, he says no. Someone else invites him, he is going.

What did I do recently to have my friends go ape shit on me?

Me and Kait are in a fight too. I told her we had some things to talk about, she didnt want to talk. I told her I needed a week away from her. I tried to talk to her again the other day, she refused to talk to me and made me seem like that bad guy. I told her Im done trying. If she wants to be friends, thats her. I just cant handle this anymore. Bitches be trippin

Im gonna be ready this time

Bull. Shit.

So the friend I constantly mention on here, Kait, and I have had problems latley. So have her and Gabby.  Gabby talks to her about their problems first...Now kait wont talk to me.

WHAT THE FUCK EVER.

I told kait I need a break from her. It will make life better if I have a week to clear my head and not to totally explode. But sorry, I really thought we solved problems in the grown up world by talking about them. But now Im about to cry because I realize how close I might be to losing my best friend. But isnt it better to confront the problems, and see what happens, rather than just living in resent?

XOXO Gossip Girl

Started to get into Gossip Girl this week. It cracks me up. Half of me wants to have an account like that.
But then I remember Im a bad bitch, And if I want to talk shit, Ill say it to your face.

So life has been a round of ups and downs latley. Been so excited about going to college.

Currently I should be working on my Math Internal Assesment, but my excuse is I need my shit, and ts in my car, and thats a long walk. Think my teacher will buy it?

August 17th is move in day for college.

Cant wait.

Crossing Boarders

Tonight has been a successful night. Hanging out with friends. Just having us time.

My friend Kait is apparently mad at me, though she hasnt said anything straight to me. Apparently I didnt invite her tonight, even though she is the first one I invited. Whatever.

This week has been a successful week. I started working out every morning before school. Even though it has only been a week, I feel better, healthier. I also try to eat alot healthier. Which is a change for me, I normally dont eat healthy.

For a while, I felt like me and Tam were drifting. But tonight, it seems like nothing at all has changed, in a good way. Like we havent drifted at all.
Honestly, he is probably what I will miss most when I go to college.

Also, I have potentially found my future roommate. He seems cool.

More to come on all this later. Slightly drunk right now.

I need more followers. Not trying to be that person, but maybe post about me on your blog?

I also need more topics to discuss. Post questions?

Friendship Means Loyalty

So, time for a rant. A teenage, sex crazed, rant.

So my friends and I are planning the tradtional beach week trip for seniors. And we are a bit more organized than most people. We are establishing rules.

Rule 1) Dont sleep with anyone in the group.

Orginally my friend Kaitlin, who not only helped come up with this rule. was a full supporter. Well once we bring it up to my friend Tam, who is against it, she starts blessing me out saying its a bad rule. I agree with it because people could get their feelings hurt (LONG story short, last summer Kait and Tam hooked up after I asked them not to. In my house. In the same room as me while I was asleep. I woke up in the middle of it. Awkward.) Well she tells me "people shouldnt have restrictions. We should be able to do what they want. If you get your feelings hurt thats on you."

Am I wrong to get mad by that statement? I feel like if you should put your friends feelings first. If you know something will hurt your friends feelings, dont do it. Even if you think its irrantional they will be upset, they are still your friend and you should be loyal to them.

People are stupid. High School is stupid. My friends are stupid.

Side Note: I want a pen pal, any takers?

Tatted up, yet not tatted yet.

Just read through some of my old posts. Half of me wants to delete them. The other half just wants to keep them because 1) They are apart of me. 2)They are so damn funny.

Anyways, I have a total of 14 days to have my Eagle Project finished and turned in. Oops, waited a little too long. Whatevs.

I am also getting a tattoo a few days after my 18th birthday. I am getting one the Sunday of my birthday weekend. I want to get a "Jesus fish" with the Bible Verse "Walk with Love, as Christ loved us. Ephesians 5:2" on my foot. That or the same bible verse with foot prints walking up my leg. In put?

So today I got a text from a guy who graduated last year, he was writing a paper for school and needed an interview. The topic had something to do with homosexuality. The questions asked me about how I, as a gay man in 2012, felt about the world. I told him about how easy it was for me to come out to my peers, but even today is difficult to come out to adults. He asked what would the one thing I would say to the world about homosexuality if everyone was listening. I told him that someones sexuality does not define them as a person. Judge someone on their character, not their sexual preference. I felt kind of important that he asked me if he could interview me.

Sorry, just wanted to rant.

I saw love in a hopless place.

Thanksgiving break came and went pretty fast, but not without a little excitment. Tuesday my sisters and I drove to Georgia. I dropped them off at my grandparents and was heading to my aunts, didnt see a stop sign, ran out into a four lane road, and BAM! My car is totaled. Gone. No more Stefani. But I am okay, bruised and sore, but okay.

Life has been busy as ever. School work, friend drama, and parent drama.

I feel like I am drifting from my best friends. Kait doesnt seem like she likes me anymore, acting annoyed when I call. Half of me is extremely upset. The other half is fine because she has been lying to me latley. We had a long talk oneday about how I would rather be told the truth about something then a bullshit excuse on something. Since then, I have got her in 4 different lies. I don't understand the purpose in it. I told her I wouldnt be mad if she told me the truth...So she lies. Why? Last night I called to see if she wanted to hangout and her sister said she was asleep. So I call my friend Gabs, her dad told me she was spending the night at Kaitlin's house. I know its little things that I shouldnt get mad at, but its the principle you know? What should I do? (Not a rhetorical question.)

Yesterday I went to JoAnns Fabric's for stuff for my eagle project. I saw a gay couple cuddling up in the scissiors section. They were completley normal, nothing special about them, they were semi-attractive but nothing special, and yet they made me so happy. It made me feel like I would be completley normal and okay when I grow up. I would be able to have a normal life  and love and be happy without trying to hide who I am.The poem below also gives me hope. Makes me sad, but gives me hope.

But then I remembered I have a conservative father who will never accept me for me. Then I remembered I dont give a damn what he thinks and one day I can do me and not care what he thinks.

Thankfulness is a relative term

Happy thanksgiving! This break has been a real mess. I'll posture details later, I'm typing this on my phone.